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Creativity Poetry

Placebo

In the dark
you whisper
your worst fears
made manifest
by explosive
lights and sounds
you conjure
in the woods
outside our room,
specters stretched
tall along walls
the shadow of what comes,
but I am not afraid
of your ghosts
nor you of mine —
we’ve never been —
it is why we
find ourselves here
again
partners in crimes
of comfort
and concoctions;
I leave my dreams
to curl into yours,
stroke the broad arm
of your embrace,
lie in the darkness
of silent
understanding,
this midnight love
come round,
the long wide bed,
moonlight and stars
our afterlife dreams.


Poem ©2025, Jen Payne. Photo by Victoria Strelka. If you like this poem, you’ll love my new book SLEEPING WITH GHOSTS, on sale now!

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Creativity Poetry

Culture Shock with a Side of Swedish Meatballs, 9/12/25*

Resisting the urge
(for the seventh or eighth time in two days)
to hoist the parking lot flag
back up to full mast
in some alter-ego
Fuck Donald Trump
ninja subterfuge,
I remind myself to
breathe in the gorgeous
late summer afternoon
there in the shadow of Ikea
— monument of consumerism —
gorgeous,
except for the Spotted Lanternfly
that crosses my path
begging me to squash its
red polka-dotted guts out;
more death on these days
of infinite death
I cannot bear;
it might be feast for the songbird
trapped in the cafeteria
throwing itself
again and again and again
against
the ceiling-high windows,
their pretense of sky;
it does not stop seeking
what it remembers, the poor thing,
but is that Futility or Hope
I wonder
as I read signs about
food waste and recycling,
the 3,920 solar panels on the roof
above my head,
feast on Swedish meatballs
covered in slick red jam.


*Flags ordered half mast to “honor” the death of white supremacist celebrity. Poem ©2025, Jen Payne. If you like this poem, you’ll love my new book SLEEPING WITH GHOSTS, on sale now!

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Creativity

A Psychosomatic Response to 2025


The physical therapist
shows me exercises,
but I tell her I am
Stretched Too Thin
ENOUGH ALREADY!
So she digs into the mechanics
of my Bracing for the Worst
and attempts to allay the
places where I am
Holding on for Dear Life  —
god bless their
white-knuckle grip
and control efforts —
INCOMING!
My shoulders, for example,
find comfort near my ears these days
perhaps to hear
which of the Invading Forces
will surge today,
while my back has decided it —
and it alone —
will hold me upright and steady
so as not to fall headfirst
into the Thick of It All;
apparently my glutes
are sitting this one out,
and lord knows my knees
won’t hold us up —
they’ve just about given up or out,
having carried the burden of this
ALL OF THIS
for way too long;
even the feet are fed up
FUCK YOU!
says my big toe,
the Last Line of Defense;
the only Saving Grace these days
is way up at the top
where words and ideas and
creative Escape Routes
are lighting up the sky!


Poem ©2024, Jen Payne.

If you like this poem, you’ll love the poems in my new book